Where is the Excitement?

Is anyone else feeling a lack of excitement these days? 

You aren’t alone. 

This pandemic has been going on for a lot longer than I think most of us expected. I mean sure, looking back I was naïve and thought “pandemic shmandemic, it’s no biggy”, and then after the first month came to realize it’s a big deal that should be taken seriously. That being said, it’s now been over a year and we are still isolated at home. I mean at least I am, here in Ontario, Canada. I know a lot of people in other parts of the world are opened up and living a little more freely again. I feel quite jealous of those places. Maybe this post isn’t for you if you don’t relate? 

Truth be told, I am not so sure I want the staying at home part to ever end. I quite like my life working form home. I get to wake up at 6am, go for a jog or a walk, work out, meditate, shower, and then start the workday at 8am. Then, I can take my lunch break with my husband, or take a nap if it’s one of those days, and at the end of the day I end work at 5pm and have 5 more hours to live my personal life. Which is great! It’s so easy, and much less stressful than getting up and rushing out of the house so we can sit in traffic for 45 minutes to get to work, then sit in an office with those awful fluorescent lights, and two tinted windows at the other end of the room, letting in little sunlight, only to then be done work at 5pm and spend another 45 minutes in traffic to get home, cook dinner for an hour, and then go to bed. I think a lot of people may agree with me when I say that life didn’t leave much room for personal growth, and family time. In my opinion, we shouldn’t have to give up our own freedoms to earn a living. What’s your two cents? 

Anyway, I still have a hard time being indoors doing the same thing day in and day out all the time. It’s gotten to the point where I long for the weekends, but then the weekends are the same. It’s going out for a walk, and then sitting inside wondering what to eat for dinner. The weekends have lost their weekend vibe. You know, the type of weekend you want to tell everyone about come Monday. It’s like an unspoken competition of who lived it best. I miss going to the movies, or going out to a nice restaurant for dinner, or maybe even going to the mall to “window shop”. There are only so many things I can come up with that can be done in a locked down city. 

So where is the excitement? Where did the fun go? What can we do that still gives us those same bragging rights?

I think we all need something to look forward to, something that we want to do for ourselves. Something we find fun. Whether that be planning a hike, going for a drive, reading a new book, or creating art, it could be anything that gets you excited for that life outside of work. Anything that doesn’t immediately remind you that we are in the midst of a pandemic, that’s what we want. 

For me, this website is a piece of my excitement. However, I do not always feel excited to have to write something to post. I actually quite often feel so extremely unmotivated, especially when I haven’t had any crazy dreams the nights previous that I could turn into a cool story for you all to read. And what is it about my life that could possibly be exciting to someone else when it comes to the blog pieces? Am I right? Regardless, once I actually sit down and put what’s on my mind onto “paper”, I feel a weight lifted from me, and my mind feels refreshed. It’s something different from my day to day, something I can look forward to, and also something I feel obligated to continue doing. It also helps, that my husband gets excited when I write too. Seeing someone else smile about something I do, it’s definitely rewarding.

And so maybe there can still be excitement. We all know it doesn’t just happen on it’s own, we have to create it for ourselves. Perhaps we should all heed our own words and do better, eh?